Tuesday, January 31, 2012

I'm in Loove !

Okay, first of all, Cory, I know you're gonna read this. Because of that, I'm just gonna blurt it out. I'm in love. And I know you're in love too. In fact, we're in love with the same PERSON ! LOL ! I'm in love with.. JESUS CHRIST :D Hahahhaha ...
Anyway, I'm not saying this just because I'm a Christian. I really mean it when I said I'm in love with Him. You know, like when you're in love, you're starting to think about that person like every second and thinking about him/her when you wake up or before you sleep. That's how I feel ... I feel that with God! So, you see.. I literally mean it. I'm not saying I love God just because I have to... since I'm a Christian.
For the past few weeks, God had been so good to me. I really can't explain it but, yeah.. He's so good. And He is still now. You know, when I know that I have sinned and started to feel unworthy to Him, somehow, I still felt that He loves me. I have never felt so good for a long time. Like, seriously.
Sometimes, before I fall asleep, I would think of God's great love for me in the midst of my sins and I almost feel like I'm going to burst in tears any moment. Also, His love gave me the longing to read His "love letters" -the Bible.
I have no idea what's happening in my life right now but I somehow think that someone, out there, have been praying for me. I don't know. Or maybe.... OH MY GOD ! Maybe GOD has answered my prayers ! I used to pray for the longing to meditate on His words in the Bible ! MY GOD, HE IS GOOOOOOOOD !

Monday, January 23, 2012

How I Miss...

I was going through some of my old photos and I came across this one..

This picture was taken back when I was still in All Saints when I was in Form 2 (2009). How I miss the school.. 
And how I miss my clean and clear face ! Look ! Not even a pimple !

And look how I look like now !

oh my..

Friday, January 20, 2012

God is so GOOD !

When I forgave the one that really hurts me, I am ten times happier than usual. 

When I forgot to pray and read the Bible, God gave me the longing to seek Him.

When I was feeling not worthy to God because of my sins, God never leaves me. In fact, He made my day even more happier and ready for me to come back to Him.

That is all I can say for now. You have no idea how awesome God had been to me. 

Sunday, January 08, 2012

I'm Back to School. Now What?

Now that I'm back to school again, I hate it. Don't get me wrong. I do love school.. I actually enjoy the first few chapters that I have learned the past few days. The teachers were nice. The problem? Well, I'm beginning to turn to one of my biggest fears. MY OLD SELF. The one who holds grudge. The one who is too busy to spend time with God. The one who hates. Do I love it? NO. I truly hate the person I'm becoming to be. Even on church today I was struggling to worship Him because I still can't forgive someone in my school. I knew I shouldn't abandoned my quiet time! I can't go through all of these without God, His words(the Bible) and prayers. These three things that I should do everyday, I abandoned. Now, I feel lost. It was easy when I was in two months holidays last year. I had so many free times I spent most of it doing my quiet times. I was also surrounded by people who shares the same faith as I do. Now that I'm in school, I'm surrounded by you-know-what and sometimes, I feel like I'm the only one. I'm lonely. Plus, I have to face with someone who challenges my patience with that 'loose mouth' every single day in school that I'm starting to hold a grudge. Am I proud of it? Of course not! I used to be the person who forgives and loves everyone. I never thought it would be this hard. I know what I have to do now. It all comes back to God. So, what I should do now is to forgive that person and fix my relationships with God. I'm so miserable without Him.

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

Back to School Again !

Hello, readers. Happy New Year! To the ones who are working, switch your holidays mode to business mode! And to the ones who are schooling, switch your holidays mode to school mode, which I certainly understand that it's quite hard. Blehh. Anyway, I can't believe I'm 17 this year! Well, praise God for that. Like I said, it's kind of sad leaving 2011 because there were so much memories there. However, I really need to welcome 2012 in my heart now. Besides, it's a fresh start right? Who doesn't like a fresh start? 2011 is great but I'm going to make 2012 to be even greater! With God by my side, nothing is impossible! 
So, it was my first day of school today. It was great. I met all my friends again and let me tell you this, when we get together, all we want to do is laugh. Ha! Ha! Ha! It has been two months since I met them yet none of them change a bit. Oh wait, some of them do change! But in a good way I guess.. May has stopped cussing, Ququ really strived to achieve her goal and Ernie really want to prove us that she would finished up all her homework. Oh, what about me? Well, um.. I'm going to concentrate more on what the teacher is saying. I  mean, not that I don't hear what the teachers are saying before but this time, I really want to focus like seriously. Yeah, I was trying to do that just now and I sat on the second line from front and I don't even hear what the teacher was saying. I was really frustrated because apparently, my classmates have something more interesting to say. Almost the whole class did not even bothered to listen the teacher. Don't they even care about this? I mean, it's our SPM year! Whatever, if they would continue their chit-chat in class, the competition would be really easy. All I have to do is to read what I have learned at home and it will guarantee me a top 5 in class. They don't care? Well, I care. 
Anyway, I'm thankful and grateful that I'm in Form 5 now and I'm officially 17 in May this year. Some people may not take time to realize this but not all people get to be in my place now. So, let us be grateful for EDUCATION !

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